New Semester in the Making

Classes start tomorrow. I think back on break and all that I accomplished...not too bad. So quick though..so quick. It's like it whisked its way passed me so un-realistically. I am now beginning to embrace one of the hardest semesters I have yet to face. I thought last semester was difficult. I knew that this semester would be hard. I knew it. But I was trying to live all I could in the moment of the break so that I wouldn't have to think about it, ha.

It will be interesting, no doubt about it. I will be pushed to my limits and then some. And I will be better for it. I would rather get pushed to my "beyond" than not get challenged enough. I would rather be fully equipped to do what I need to, rather than, when the time comes, not know what to do. I am glad for the rigorous regime...but at the same time--and for a good reason--I run to God. I ask for his Son's strength, and I ask for the wisdom to handle everything according to his will in my life.

Should be a good semester. And like the one before it, I am shooting for the 4.0. Last semester I was shy by a little, but I feel that if I apply myself and keep in mind what needs to be done..AND DO IT, then I should be able to grab that no problem.

Your prayers are MORE than welcome at my front door and I will try my best to see you all throughout the semester. Peace.

Eric

Words, words, words

Your beauty is everywhere. It breathes like a gust from the coast, like a song with the most, it covers all worth to boast. Your beauty stretches across the skies, beyond the rolling waves, past the gull she flies. This word that describes, it works and it tries–failing to capture all that you are, like trying to say you’re as bright as a star…the justice is lost when you’re not near but far. Words, words, words, I wrap them in a gift, like emotion still badly needing to sift, through holes in your hands they fall o’ so swift, how do I convey that a sunrise causes my heart to skip. In awe here I stand, wondering how you worked this all with your hand, it’s the absolute farthest thing from bland, standing here…I’m just a speck of sand. Words, words, words are all that they are, strokes of your brush, hush from afar…

Starting anew, starting now.

Well, I just came back from Passion2010 and I am pretty happy. the illation is due to the level that I know my God at. Finding out who God truly is and what he has for me brings me joy. Finding out that he is a Jealous God and he wants my praise brings me joy. Finding that passion that has been within me all along brings me joy. My bliss is only matched to the God I serve. I can only imagine how happy he is that I am starting to live more for Him now. And I know you think it’s a hype you get with a conference…there is that. It exists, and I know it. Eventually, I will come down from the high. But what if I don’t? What if I make it my goal to not release the high from my life? What if instead I replace my character with the character of Christ and start living as he did? What if I DO THAT! Think about it. I don’t have to return to my mediocre, life of sin. I don’t have to sleep in all day and waste precious time that I could spending with God. I don’t have to replace other things with the Love of Christ – which fills ALL gaps in my life. I don’t HAVE to. Who says I do? So now I am going off to do some errands, talk with God on the way, and kick some fellowship tail with the God most High.

My Weekend

So, This is what happened. Friday I went to work. During work, my battery died on my phone. It is now that I realize that I did not grab the address off the phone for the dinner with the Carstons (friends from church) at the hotel. I also realized that I was under dressed and dropped $120 on pants, shoes and a belt. I charge my phone a bit at the verizon store at woodfield, printed directions, and headed off to the party. My battery died again on the way there. I partied all night and then hung out with the guys. I slept at Dan free's house because I had AV (audio/visual) Room the next morning. Woke up, did AV room, hung out with people till youth group, helped out at youth group. At youth group, we sleded the whole time and had hot chocolate at the end. Then Jenn was leaving for Europe tomorrow and was having a get together at a friends tonight. So I decided to head over there, stay a bit and then head back home. Well. I got directions from Jenn on how to get to the house...and they were sketchy. I got kinda lost, and stuck behind a train that stayed on the tracks, blocking the intersection I needed to go through...FOR 20 MINUTES. Meanwhile I am praying the entire time cause I have no phone, and weird directions, every road I take has detours to take due to construction...I'm getting worn out at this point. I'm stopping at every Citgo Gas Station along the way asking for directions to help me get to where I want to go, but at 10PM, they closed, so I was on my own. By God's grace, I found a landmark that I was supposed to look for, followed that to the house and then decided it would be best if I stayed at Jenn's for the night. Justin, a friend who is also going with Jenn and her class to the Interum trip to Europe, was going to stay at Jenn's house too. This brings me to now, where I am typing out this blog entry, comfy at my home and totally content with life. god blesses and he takes, but today he blesses. How was your weekend?

The Done

Alright folks, I know that a few of you are still engaged heavily in the studies of the final variety, but I just had to jump on my Mountain and scream that I AM DONE!!! Done with papers, presentations, groups, professors, grammar, schedules, 8am’s, morning run’s (well, I’ll keep those), but it is out the window. So, with this in mind, I reflect on what I accomplished. As usually, I feel that I could have done a better job and could have been less distracted. This is the usual, but if I search deeper, I know that I did not include someone who wanted in on my entire semester at Aurora, God.

It was with great amounts of sadness that I reflect and realize that I did not bring Him into the equation NEARLY enough as I should have. My relationship with Him is worth more than any other relationship that I have ever received. This is why I should include Him more in everything I do, walking out the door, pray, driving in the car, pray, walking into class, pray, working on homework, pray. Do this NOT ONLY when you have a test or hard assignment. INCLUDE HIM! This is what I know I should have done better this year.

I can not say enough how excited I am to be done with everything this year had to hold. I want to see you people more often now. Love to all of you and Merry Christmas. See you all soon.

True Love Will Find You In The End.

This is Maximum. The most. The best. Love at its greatest. Above the rest. Feelings of warmth, joy, bliss. Making sure you don't miss loves true kiss. The flutter within the cage of bones. Long hours, countless words exchanged on phones. This is the Maximum. The most. The best. You know it's real. It's in the chest. That gut reaction. The satisfaction. The feeling pushing you right into action. The nerves, the smiles, the pain, the trials. It makes you sick, like smelling turnstiles. This is the Maximum. The most. The best. Where true love can shine and push the test. Where two can share, sacrifice, invest. Where they defy all odds with passion and finesse. This is where beauty is beautiful and love is lovely. Where dinner and a movie means ice cream is likely. When the letter in the mail arrives o' so timely. This is where men search true love in the quest. When feelings are no longer so deeply suppressed. Where reason is abandoned and Love is professed. This is the Maximum. The most. The best.

Poemotion

The end is sighted, crosshairs alined, the freedom is tangible, or is it all in my mind...

God what I'd give to be unconfined.

I'd break free and spread wings high.

I'd dare the best to deny my good-bye.

I fly....

Unrestricted.

Unrelenting.

Undiminished.

Uninventing. the way I live. it begins today. sending my restrictions into disarray.

Mind's Mirror

Its on this day of many days that I choose to reflect on events that have passed. Here are the reflections of my mind's mirror.

Blessed. So very blessed. For my friends. For my family. For my house I live in and the computer I type from. For my education, and how I use it. For the people I touch, by the grace of God I give it. For the clothes I wear, and the clothes I give. For the money in my account, may it fester and grow. For the view out my window and the sunrays that glow. And the painting He paints. He knows what I love, sunsets and sunrises. My smiles point above.

Most of all, its love, above all else. I could go days with riches, and happiness drought. But love weighs more, my heart knows. No doubt. I love you all. I love you so much. You all know that. You all know that I'm touched. I value love above everything blessed. That I wrote it on my arm, like a moto, like a crest.

I know you all have blessings. You have them in spades. Give some to someone, whose life they would trade. They need our love, they need our attention. Why help the healthy, when the sick seem to worsen.

I'm done with this soapbox, I didn't mean to shout. I'm so pleased with my life, and how it turned out. I wanted you to know. I wanted to convey. That you mean so much to me. In every way.

So this season, lets share this great love. And hopefully this message, will fit like a glove. I wish you the best and all life can write. Merry Christmas to all, and to all a great night.