Thursday, October 9, 2008

Juggle What?

For most of you who know me very well, you know that I am more than busy as of late and I have fulfilled my time with small groups and other nightly activities (they take place at night). For those who don't, well I basically only have one day pretty much to myself. I am a godly man, and as such I make an effort to include God in everything that I do. What can I say, I love him. He is my everything. He is the seal upon my heart and the fire within my words. I try not to do much speaking and just let my "living" do the preaching. Anyway, so I make sure that in the morning I spend time with God, and then do work that school assigns me, and then Mon, Wed, Fridays I usually help out Dan Beckvar for mucho money. Every night except Thursday I seem to be doing some kind of small group or Youth ministry. It's what I love to do. Its what I am passionate about. The only thing is, it is starting to get a bit out of control. School work is catching up on me after about a month of nothing, filling in my free days with paid work is taking away from school, and nights are when school work can be done best sometimes. Not to mention that if I want to spend time with God, which is more important to me than anything, I have to get into bed at around 10pm, no exceptions. This leaves time. 

It is obvious in my endless wisdom that I am going to have to shut down some of the opportunities that have come up in this time. The question I pose is this: Which small group means less to me? Which do I feel is not picking me up? At least it seems as if this is the question I should be asking. You see, with all this busyness, I leave no room for things to happen. If someone wants something to happen, it most likely would not be able to fit within my ALL IMPORTANT SCHEDULE.  No, it is without a doubt that some trimming will have to take place. All I ask within this is some prayer to decide. My family is trying to sell their home, so that would need some prayer as well. We are paying two mortgages and it is killing us. 

1 comment:

the_valaseks said...

first, a random recommendation: go to myspace, look up "the cobalt season," listen, and fall in love!
second, i hear you on the busyness (although, i'm not quite that busy yet). suggestion: don't allow yourself to go any small group until you have sufficiently down all the homework for that day. this way, you will go to the small group that more naturally fits your school's schedule. maybe this sounds like school will control your spirituality, but i feel like this will allow you to feel which small group you miss more when you do not go. plus, if you go to small group without work over your head, you'll feel less stressed about that.
third, with all your time at small group, at youth group, in the private places with god, do you make time for yourself to exit the safety of christianity and enter the darkness to make disciples? i don't want to cause more unrest, but if it is for growth's sake then i'll do what i can. i feel very convicted in myself to just get out of my house and potentially screw up instead of staying in-doors and just screwing myself there. at least if i am with other i will potentially affect another individual. think about it, call me sometime, and invite me to sleep over again!
curtis valasek