Easter Update

The Gorge

The Gorge

What flow the river flows

Glow the sun glows

Snow melts and grass grows

It’s true, the time slows

And it’s only God that knows

The discharge of my life,

My highs and lows

The breeze tingles as it blows

Simultaneously waking

as the bird crows

End of the trip—the van—it tows

Away our dirty clothes

My favorite weekend ends with prose.

This poem is on moving on

For any of you out there who need to move on from a girl. Let this breathe deep. (I'm no woman hater, I am just feeling for anyone hurting.)

In a While 12.18.2007

This is the last one for a while, about you that I shall compile—

Words into poetry, they flow o’ so easily—

When you were my muse, I was allowed to love and in fuse—

The emotions that spilled, it filled and drilled—now killed—

You love him, I saw it—nothin’ I could do to stop it.

Just don’t forget, I never did regret—

The feeling that I had for you, I held them for a year or two—

Now they filter through my mind, unforgiving, it needs to unwind.

Don’t worry..I’ll still be here, even though what I dreamed disappeared.

For you, I’d crawl a straight up mile, just know I’m done writing about you for a while.

The proverbial melt
we all felt
the flowing minutes
the river stream of time
oh the sublime line of time

Buds anew
from the dew
EXPLODE with anticipation
the green, the pink, the beautiful
suddenly I begin to fall

Question the fixation
that we have with sensations
as pollen enters asthmatically
growth spoke loud
spring throws off winter's shroud
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Progression
Cool breeze, hits my knees, with the ease to move trees, I just want it to please--warm up, my body from the bottom to the top, don't let it stop, I need this plot to continue.
It's coming, you hear it clearly, its not coming so easily, all I do is plea, that the growth would break free, enter into me.
Blossuming fauna, the aroma is a sauna, to every trauma, winter held-spelled-told-controlled-filled and killed.
The new day, overcame the dark, clouds part.

The Pursuit of Awesomeness

The Trip that I am looking forward to more than anything in the past year, has been a little trip that some guys on my floor and I have been planning for quite some time now. This trip involves a massive amount of sleeping in tents, gazing at stars, appreciating lifes beauty....hold on, alright sorry, ahem. This trip involves massive amounts of testosterone, fire, skin ripping rocks, 500 foot cliffs, harnesses, and no showering. There. That sounds better.

RED RIVER GORGE. The Midwest Climbers paradise. I can't wait to go. I have been practicing for about 2 months for this trip and I think that we are ready. Cody Cooper, Jeremiah Mallin, Jeff Stern, Matt, Eric Leedy, Gabe Stecker, and myself. This is going to be pretty much the best Spring Break ever.

Life, Liberty and the Choice to Trust Him when it matters

There is a deep underlining question that often plagues the pondering heart: Is this the direction that God has for me?

I have been recently faced with such a question--and have brought too many possible solutions to the table, that things are getting a bit crowded. Does God want me to take a year off college, or go to Aurora university? And if I am to take a year off, where? And what to do with the year? Would I live with the guys from Boer in their house? Would I go abroad and join the Peace Corps? Would I find myself in some European country and peddle for room and board? I have been bogged down with overwhelming uncertainly that I need a clear and decisive answer to come streaming from the clouds above and say, "THIS IS THE WAY!" Obviously, this is not to be.

So I have been praying to God through all the confusion and doubt...what to do. "Give me a clear sign God," is basically what I said to Him. Well, it seems that God likes answering my prayers. I have been getting message after message from preachers or sermons, or slight of conversation about trusting God. Is there something that I am not trusting God with? Is there an area of your life that you aren't ready to let go, or want so bad that you can't wait? To be patient may be the hardest thing. To trust in God that going to Aurora and leaving all of my closest friends (and by closest, I mean people I have laughed with, cried with, and done stupid things with that I will never forget. We are talking closer than some people I have known for my whole life.) is the right decision. To say, "God, you got it, and I can't second guess the timing that you have for me. I can't try to make what I want, happen. It is my time to leave. I have done what you wanted me to do. God, I have been more blessed in this place than I have ever been in my lifetime. I cannot give you more thanks than I have breath in my body. Let my life be a lifesong for You.

Trust in the one who sees everything that is good for you and laid out the plan. Follow His ways.

Ode to the Man we Lost

Last night we lost another good man to the bonds of matrimony. Okay, so he just asked her to marry him, but WE STILL LOST HIM! Last night, we tailed Mike Bosscher and his girlfriend Valaree around Grand Rapids, taking pictures everywhere they went. We went into coffee shops and parks, nature preserves and the actual house where he was proposing in. It was crazy stealthy, and I don't think that they ever saw us. We also were there as a certain moral support--being a physical presence wherever he was.

The whole night was great. We got some good pictures, but alot of bad ones, haha. After that I went into Ben Dykstras room and Nikki, Erica, and Dan Prins were in there. We just played on the accoustic and mellowed out--making up songs and just fooling around. It was a great night. BUT...it was bitter sweet.....because..we lost Mike. Farewell Mike, we knew you well.

Congrats!

Zombies? Yes. I think I shall.

So Saturday was great. Besides wasting half of the day around doing homework, ha. No, but it was good. It was a normal day of relaxing and enjoying the freedom of the great day called Saturday.

After homework though, we headed to Johnny's to grab a snack for the movie we were going to watch. We had decided that since we had already seen the second zombie movie--Resident Evil-Apocalypse, then we might as well see the third one, Resident Evil-Evolution. This was a movie packed with blood, zombies bitting people, making them into zombies, shooting zombies, taming zombies, and just plain zombies. It was okay, but for those squeamish to blood and zombies popping out of no where to scare you, I wouldn't recommend it. After that, we headed into The Cody Cove to talk some more, cause thats what men on 1st Boer do...we talk deep. yeah-you wish your floor did.

For what it's worth, I am so blessed with the guys that God has sent me. I will not only never forget them, but will never forget what I have learned from them. Thank You God for them and thank you for lighting my path.

Peace and Love to you guys

EP